A Course In Miracles
I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is trading (sharing) a Music of Enjoy and Development or judgments of the ego centered on everything you look for (agree with) in the mind. There is no other way. In the Program, your brain (content) is split between Lord and the vanity; and you are picking all the time with a side as reason for effect.
Forms (all points with this world) are miscreations showing the ego’s judgmental thought system. We’ve made it up (miscreated that world) and may give it up any time by solving your head (forgiveness). True prayer needs this modification of the mind as Lord has nothing to do with forms.
What Prayer is Not:
As you are always deciding, that which you look for whenever you wish is what counts. Once you plead in prayer to own God resolve a form problem with yet another kind problem, you’re asking the vanity mind for help (not God). Those types and wants are considered more crucial than God’s Enjoy which will remain hidden to their education you choose the illusion.
All outside things (forms) are needs. Different brands are wants, dreams, status, problems, nausea, individual enjoy (special relationships), presents and targets in this world, etc. They are that which you pick as alternatives for God’s Love and the confidence will overlook the purpose of prayer by using them to further the illusion. Thus, prayer can not be about “forms” or “needs” in any way.